Sunday, September 22, 2013
Stuff..
I need to stop and smell the flowers, and I changed my Twitter background.
I'd probably cry now under pressure, but I don't act unimpressed by fame. I look for things in normal people..or whatever you'd call me and my past wishes. I just wanna be able to walk around and meet people, seems possible.
I'd probably cry now under pressure, but I don't act unimpressed by fame. I look for things in normal people..or whatever you'd call me and my past wishes. I just wanna be able to walk around and meet people, seems possible.
Problem
You know, Ellen, I don't think it's cute to suck up to you or the weird "messages" I'm getting. I don't wanna be bopped for every thing I do that makes it. ^What about^ the things that you think I told someone in my head?
Oh, if you didn't get it, I mean I'm not gonna suck up to you cuz sucking up is bad. In other words, I mean you seem smart, but you do seem like a robot, like you can't step outta character or something in some way. ..What I mean is I don't just sit there in a stupor. I actually identify what's being said and then post it on my blog. I change moods, but I don't get moody..try not to. I don't usually explode, but sometimes what I made myself do emotionally and such was quite weird. I just felt you thought you could never like "frown" your eyebrows or make them look serious. I know you're gay, and that probably is why. I guess you don't wanna be called that, but I mean something like that, like being gay for you and just like looking up to you in a way that says you're better unless it's those iKids, who it would seem should have to do the same thing though I don't think any good person should. What I mean by better is that we cannot co-achieve.
Oh, if you didn't get it, I mean I'm not gonna suck up to you cuz sucking up is bad. In other words, I mean you seem smart, but you do seem like a robot, like you can't step outta character or something in some way. ..What I mean is I don't just sit there in a stupor. I actually identify what's being said and then post it on my blog. I change moods, but I don't get moody..try not to. I don't usually explode, but sometimes what I made myself do emotionally and such was quite weird. I just felt you thought you could never like "frown" your eyebrows or make them look serious. I know you're gay, and that probably is why. I guess you don't wanna be called that, but I mean something like that, like being gay for you and just like looking up to you in a way that says you're better unless it's those iKids, who it would seem should have to do the same thing though I don't think any good person should. What I mean by better is that we cannot co-achieve.
Anyone?
Why do I see my dad have long conversations with his sister..s? I do with my gramma on the phone, when I called her. You know, I already got dressed. My new habit.
Funny
You think I was the 1 who said the N word, but it was for the experiment I thought and snap decided..but I'm the nicer person. It's so funny, nothing you've imprinted and left on me matters cuz it was something in my past, like you know my mom doesn't think I'm perfect|always that good. I have no clue why people just take any opportunity to ruin it for me and for the other people than themselves. Ugh, I type on NotePad on a new keyboard, not sure what else to say. It's a long topic. I just wanted to be who I was, I don't act coy and bob my head down and look away as I smile softly, so I'm not just someone who's shy who can't converse. I'm a more mature person, I don't live some fantasy that I actually wanna look like the .. stood. The stood of the generation we are not encouraged to follow these days cuz we know in the end we're gonna just have a hissy on everyone and maybe we seem lazy. I have no clue why, maybe you have 2 older parents. Nothing wrong with either person. I have character, moral, and ambition. I'm a normal person if need be, to try to make best friends and such and learn juicy gossip! To go shopping together, to visit as a group sometime so we can all dress up other than to church and take pictures and post them online. I can do stuff like that, I have the time. Even though I don't have time for homework. I just sit there and don't feel like doing what I'm doing. The school day is too long, and I don't spend any of it socializing.
My Pets
I guess I didn't think I was going anywhere, but I forgot about visiting my aunt and gramma, in Florida, though. I mean, I should still be able to have pets. My gramma is actually just moving, though. I mean, nothing wrong with a pet. Dogs aren't really that hard. Don't have 1. The hamster is just.. "nice." The betta fish is very smart, too.
I just wanted the experience of taking care of them, possibly because of wanting to train a border collie when I retire in my 30s or 40s as a performer. Might not make sense for someone like me, but I wanted a dog I guess. I like wild animals, like wild cats.. So, it was like it was t take care of them and for the experience, the betta, then I knew I liked hamsters so got 1. For a long time, I said I'd get 1, but it was discreet.
Multi-tasking can be a good thing. I'm spending time going to Disney now, too, in October, getting the all time Florida pass for like $200. I felt like I was at Disney when I went to the theater and saw The Wizard of Oz as IMAX 3D.
I just wanted the experience of taking care of them, possibly because of wanting to train a border collie when I retire in my 30s or 40s as a performer. Might not make sense for someone like me, but I wanted a dog I guess. I like wild animals, like wild cats.. So, it was like it was t take care of them and for the experience, the betta, then I knew I liked hamsters so got 1. For a long time, I said I'd get 1, but it was discreet.
Multi-tasking can be a good thing. I'm spending time going to Disney now, too, in October, getting the all time Florida pass for like $200. I felt like I was at Disney when I went to the theater and saw The Wizard of Oz as IMAX 3D.
Dreams
I remember the 2nd 1. I was waiting for my mom but was with others instead. I wanted to try to call Ellen DeGeneres, but I heard my mom's toes were gone.
Come On
Seriously, before Charlie and the Chocolate Factory which brought along Tim Burton, none of this happened. Ginny wasn't really mean to me, as nice as she supposedly would be. I know cuz she's really nice but also has hurt me.
Staying Quiet
How does that help? Doesn't it come up sooner or later, though it doesn't seem to come up with me. Guess I don't waste energy on weird things like that.
I guess..
People have a hard time saying what they mean. Like, because no one answers. There's no way of communicating, really.
Is this topic even worth it?
That shouldn't suggest anything to anyone. I was wondering why I am being teased. Like, supposedly we all die so why not make something go like Ellen DeGeneres believing her generation is the 1 that goes to Heaven and just like ruin it for everyone?
Help!
Ellen! My friend!!
I saw "Ghost Adventures" and learned something. I forget now. I remember I wasn't in a mood to see a ghost. I feel like 2 how I think, can't remember. They reminded me of New Orleans. Ah! I can't remember. I usually can.
I saw "Ghost Adventures" and learned something. I forget now. I remember I wasn't in a mood to see a ghost. I feel like 2 how I think, can't remember. They reminded me of New Orleans. Ah! I can't remember. I usually can.
I found this girl.
She is friends with my aunts. I think she comes from my aunt's husband's big German family. Their mother just passed away 2 years ago. She was a sweet, tiny German lady with such lovely kids. I see she married someone British. I find I understand her more, maybe cuz my mom's unacceptedly Dutch Chinese Indonesian. I'm serious, that family likes me. I shoulda been more careful online like her.
O, I was gonna say, I wanna be recognized for being like that family when my aunt's don't fit in, and it's from my mom, though she's Chinese. I was sure of it, but I didn't feel accepted as I was. I see I could go back and edit that, but why? I don't feel that competent, anymore. I'm uncomfortable and have a busy mind. I need to clean my room to make it a happy place. I dunno, I just feel a bit injured. I guess we all do. We're learning to be strong. I mean, I got stuff laying about and need a coat stand. I have nowhere to lodge my blankets. My room looks so ugly!
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O, I was gonna say, I wanna be recognized for being like that family when my aunt's don't fit in, and it's from my mom, though she's Chinese. I was sure of it, but I didn't feel accepted as I was. I see I could go back and edit that, but why? I don't feel that competent, anymore. I'm uncomfortable and have a busy mind. I need to clean my room to make it a happy place. I dunno, I just feel a bit injured. I guess we all do. We're learning to be strong. I mean, I got stuff laying about and need a coat stand. I have nowhere to lodge my blankets. My room looks so ugly!
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Caught a Fast 1, I Think
Ellen DeGeneres doesn't believe people are good on their own but by their race, their parents's age and what they can do to you in their level of fitness|mentality. She's probably just saying it but naturally doesn't believe it. Just sorta tossing it out there. I felt offended being 1/2 Chinese. She's Jewish, and I'm a nigger, how 'bout that. Everyone likes the white Jews. People don't connect to me racially, for some reason. Hey, she had Pink on her show and her mom is all Jewish I think. I just feel she's questioned all I've done. I posted @ it, and then I noticed maybe she really did believe in the opposite.
What do you think of the hatred of white people? Like, you just did what they did and it's not okay to them. Then, you feel like something else. I just like Middle Eastern.
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