She is friends with my aunts. I think she comes from my aunt's husband's big German family. Their mother just passed away 2 years ago. She was a sweet, tiny German lady with such lovely kids. I see she married someone British. I find I understand her more, maybe cuz my mom's unacceptedly Dutch Chinese Indonesian. I'm serious, that family likes me. I shoulda been more careful online like her.
O, I was gonna say, I wanna be recognized for being like that family when my aunt's don't fit in, and it's from my mom, though she's Chinese. I was sure of it, but I didn't feel accepted as I was. I see I could go back and edit that, but why? I don't feel that competent, anymore. I'm uncomfortable and have a busy mind. I need to clean my room to make it a happy place. I dunno, I just feel a bit injured. I guess we all do. We're learning to be strong. I mean, I got stuff laying about and need a coat stand. I have nowhere to lodge my blankets. My room looks so ugly!
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