Funny

You think I was the 1 who said the N word, but it was for the experiment I thought and snap decided..but I'm the nicer person.  It's so funny, nothing you've imprinted and left on me matters cuz it was something in my past, like you know my mom doesn't think I'm perfect|always that good.  I have no clue why people just take any opportunity to ruin it for me and for the other people than themselves.  Ugh, I type on NotePad on a new keyboard, not sure what else to say.  It's a long topic.  I just wanted to be who I was, I don't act coy and bob my head down and look away as I smile softly, so I'm not just someone who's shy who can't converse.  I'm a more mature person, I don't live some fantasy that I actually wanna look like the .. stood.  The stood of the generation we are not encouraged to follow these days cuz we know in the end we're gonna just have a hissy on everyone and maybe we seem lazy.  I have no clue why, maybe you have 2 older parents.  Nothing wrong with either person.  I have character, moral, and ambition.  I'm a normal person if need be, to try to make best friends and such and learn juicy gossip!  To go shopping together, to visit as a group sometime so we can all dress up other than to church and take pictures and post them online.  I can do stuff like that, I have the time.  Even though I don't have time for homework.  I just sit there and don't feel like doing what I'm doing.  The school day is too long, and I don't spend any of it socializing.