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I woke up to a rather unpleasant surprise.  My head felt like it was made of this sorta vacuumed, tight, rubbery yet sticky like dough mostly stuff, well my brain, sorta as though it were all 1 thing.  All I could think of was how Ellen DeGeneres made her eye ridges like Nell Burton and showed them off to me with the intention I was 1/2 Chinese I felt.  Not sure how you'd make sense of it going across.  I feel rather brain dead, as though I've had too many pills.  I blame Ginny because my mom might be scared I'll get mad and tries to get me mad.  I also blame Tim Burton.  Ellen DeGeneres tries to humiliate people.  I think my mom knows.  All I did was get upset @ the chemicals in my brain.  I don't believe I should be on the pills, but there's another reason I'm on them.  I think it happened just because I was mulling over it.  I think it was planted in me and Ellen DeGeneres, who is too uptight to think she does anything for anyone factually.., like it’s like she wanted it and she took her time to do it.  Ellen, you shouldn’t be doing that.  No one likes it.  Ya’ll don’t need to do that to be safe, not anymore!  I personally find it nit-picky and something no one else would want to have happen to them.  What about my precious head?  Also, Nell Burton has been getting in the way of like Tim Burton and now you.  I thought he would be more there for the world, but he literally answers it’s about his daughter.  You can tell it in how he acts.  I sorta stopped saying this, but I mean like people use her as a guide or tool against you.  Her mom shook her head at the Oscars saying she thinks all the stuff for me, or the good kids, should go to her, as someone spoke @ his award and disagreed.  I see it wasn’t a good attitude, but he was sitting with her.  It’s funny how people think of other people at things like this like that.  I wonder if we could get that not to come up.  There is the part of the dedication as an option, but I don’t understand it.  I would thank all the people who supported me online if I got some sort of reward.  I’d be thinking of people, possibly, myself though I don’t usually seem to know.. good to be nice, though.  Anyway, it disturbs me, Nell Burton like is trying to hurt us saying she and not others deserve to be like Ellen DeGeneres.  That’s something that affected me and made me get out something else.  I dunno, I mean what happened to my brain??  What the Hell did I do?  It’s like I didn’t sleep enough, too.  I’m just waking up and need my cereal, but my mom’s out there.  I really am not feeling a certain good way @ this, the idea Ellen is like Nell Burton.  She seems to have woken up and just wanted everything from everyone!  I’m serious.  That was a startling sorta message.  Ellen just believes in making me shitty.  I guess I should be more thankful.  I wouldn’t want to be a good fairy.  So, yes, she probably did that because I thought in the experiment I was supposed to call Nell the N word.  That’s what happened.  So, I feel “that was why” and that’s why I can’t take it.  Unfortunately, I think this has worthlessly affected out happiness.  I’m tired of that creep Helena Bonham Carter.  I liked her in Les Miserables.  I think I’m waking up, though.  It didn’t really hurt me, and it’s not really bad.  It just doesn’t seem like a good thing.  I wouldn’t do something like that to someone, like you don’t know where you are supposedly?  What have these people done to affect my life!?  My dad is just being a set, well, animal.  Yesterday, I was eating supper again and my dad was acting vicious and derogatory and I felt like he ate a chord and wanted to get down at my big brain.  Well, the chord was there, I mean, whatever.  The chord was on the right side..  This is also like when he sorta knocked out my hands looking sorta crystally or put together that way.  I stopped for awhile but went back.  I’m too fat, now, though.  When I called someone the N word, .. my head had just been ruined trying to get blackheads out, like my brain, really.  I don’t need that sorta plastic, artificial logic my dad thinks is what we said through my gramma, but I am free from my parents’s bondage since college.  See, I just wasted a morning..  I need to go eat.