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Only in Florida most of my life, you might say.

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I barely did it most of the time in New Orleans.

Also..

..I didn't do it as much on purpose, like, until moving from the New Orleans area, to Disney.

Sorry

When I m.., it isn't heavy at all nor very complex nowaday.. It isn't to feel pleasure.

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I wanna go back to living in Saint Augustine .. onhhhh

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"The Ellen DeGeneres Show"

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1st 1!

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Ceom on! (Come on!)

Let's give Ellen a loving arousal! Let's get silly!

I hope this doesn't sound insulting, but..

..just to be safe maybe better do an exercise video..

Sorry..

Ginny, I forgive you for hurting me.

I found what I was doing.

So, don't you need to be open when you talk?  I'll probably just look up self-help things online.

More Mad

The town was all on @ my future daughter until Ginny, too.  My mom started it, though.

Ginny

Go away, I don't wanna fight you.  You're not in my family.  I gave you a chance.

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Stupid?

I'm not, but neither are you really.  I am not saying not to mention her.  I mean, she is a prominent figure.

Problem

Ellen I am not taking this Ginny mess.  I am not taking the little clicks in my room, they are not my parents.  I do not like this pill.  Curses to my therapist.

SHUT UP

quit playing with my life

WTF R U STOP

Problem

Ginny did this.  I will not forgive her until I die.

Yes

This is shit.

Problem

You can't just push a button whenever you want at me.  I told you this is war.  Tim Burton.  What can I say.  Just stop.  It doesn't matter.

Problem

So these ^gay^ people made a mouthful gawking at hurting Ellen in a message and I just imagined long thin fingernails.  Go away, Ginny!!

(no on didn't do anything to her if you're interested)

So

Ginny actually is angry @ me and thinks she can take advantage of it.

I do worry for her and hope things go her way.  I don't know how vacation went.  We never got back together.  Too much to practice like that for her.

More

Minor changes or setbacks in life cause anger or disagreement.

Sites

http://www.lifehack.org/articles/lifestyle/how-to-stop-being-angry.html - This 1 looks like Ginny.

http://www.apa.org/topics/anger/control.aspx - I need to slow down.  (Nicest site.)

http://www.impactpublishers.com/index.php?p=custom_page&page_name=Angry%3f-Tips-to-Calm-Down-on-the-Spot- - Take major messages that anger me seriously, unless there are too many to keep track of.

http://thinksimplenow.com/happiness/15-simple-ways-to-overcome-anger/ - I'm on the road to recovery?

Maybe

my eye will die and is just gonna pop out anyway.

More Shit? '8I

Yea, I was gonna fight Ginny for popping up and being like "Well.." and my mom made my eye come out some.  Ginny's not worth nothin' @ that.  THAT'S RIGHT MY EYE CAME OUT

Why

is this coming up again and again?  I ^wasn't gonna^ talk @ it.  We bumped @ "something like no more Ellen.."  Look, you can make me mad.

Yea

I acted mad because I didn't wanna post @ it.

Problem

Ellen I saw you all call me a nigger for being good and then saying me being mad was bad.

my courtesy to Ellen DeGeneres still and anyone else

Oops

How can I not get mad, gonna look it up online while I cook my burger.

Pill.

Recipe

I'm going to make Tai Chicken and Corn soup from a healthy recipe book from my mom awhile back.  I had more before, like Wok.  I think 3 and 1 vegitarian.  I liked the other.

Fine

Ellen needs to be touched a lot?  Why do you all act like frogs around her with these questions?

What, now?

I'm not really mad.  Should I get a hamburger?  We have imitation crab, too, and I'd already been doing just mac and tuna and mayo and s+p.

Also

That's pretty suggestive to say it's no bc I'm who I am and I am mean to Christina.  Stop making fun of me watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show!"  I do like it, and I do care @ her, but you keep getting @ me and don't have nothing to help.

So..

..Yea, I was gonna ask what was up with my dad doing mean stuff anyway.  He's acting like he's done nothing wrong, but people can't get at me when I try to get away from them.  I've been hurt a lot, too.  I wanted good food!  Thanks a lot, think something @ Johnny Depp came up and got in the way.  What was that?  You think you're better from the South?  I hope this isn't another "Ellen" message, but I got pretty upset at the onslaught of attacks I am dealing with.

Wut?

Why is Ginny talking?  She's not worth more than everyone else.  Stop blocking me on Facebook!

Problem

You just don't shut up, you silly 1950 people.

What if I said no touching Ellen DeGeneres?

Why is everyone saying I hypnotized her to be interested?  It all made sense, at the time.  It still does.  You're all mean..

O, okay, fine.  I didn't think Ginny wanted to stop and my dad didn't seem to care.

What more messages?  I should just not pay attention to you.  Is that what this is?  That was a pretty interesting idea..  Wow, like, I'd hope someone you looked up to get molested as soon as you meet them.  Wow, you gonna d** anyway?  Cuz I wasn't and I don't need any of you people in the world and didn't.

Whatever!  Just thought I'd comment on the complexity of the message.  Just go along?  That's what I did.  I'm not some stupid person who believes in, "Just be silent, I'm stupid, and I didn't do nothing good in my life."

You know, though?

Some things don't affect me. 69

You know..

I think people just don't want me to have a happy life and don't really think anyone -should-- feel perfect.

Mistakes

My dad does this, now, too, if something bad happens in my head I get in trouble and I can't cry, can't m.., can't work out until I'm dead, still learning how to administer my eating.  How can I control something like that with Helena Bonham Carter?  I already am fine with her, but then when she's not acting..  Is that how everyone feels?  We don't have to fight to have fun!  I'm not the 1 in the fights!

Because people got mad at me for something silly, and like a word has to hit, that was the stoop.  I got really mad!  I wasn't mad -at- anyone.  So, it was just like, also happened later and I tried to say like no I don't mean that.  It does come up like a ghost.  Like I didn't do it, and I know that, I don't do a lot of things that it seems I do, I know that.  My dad wouldn't agree, but I know it for a fact.  So, as for it coming up, if I don't wanna think @ it, it comes up, but I don't mean it.  I don't say it in my head on purpose.

Why would Ginny insult something so suggestive?

Why should we?

What's the point in going to Ellen when she makes the same mistakes as our parents we try to get away from at times?

Her TV shwo will get cancelled (would,) and she'd be stuck with little miss Portia from Australia and spent money on her wildlife.  She'll have given stuff to others.  She'd have no one to show what she's done.  I'm not threatening her, but I'm saying how sad she'd be if she didn't have her show.  I'm saying that she makes the same mistakes, like, as my mom or also doesn't have a say in like I don't wanna feel much from my dad right now, he's not as fun in some ways.  That's really his personality.  My mom is like that in some ways.  I'm not really like them.  I wanna fit in my world and be cool and be there for people I guess.  Like, maybe she doesn't, but I just walked past the news and someone sounded like she said Nikki Minaj.  Is she playing games saying we see Norwegian people dancing and then "Starships were meant ot fly?"  I don't want kids now.  I was supposed to have a good young adult life, but my parents couldn't provide for me, and I didn't get a blog and work things out.  I was mad at everyone and lost all my friends.

All I can say otherwise is to try not to talk about it as much as possible but to get it out.  I know bad ideas will pop up if you don't learn to get a handle on the abstractions in your life.  So, again, I was just elaborating a story of Ellen, not wishing misfortune on her.  I just wanted to know what her bad side would be.

I have some other issue @ people watching me.  Like, I could have looked good but blame my parents.  They don't seem to know what to do with me and blame me for stuff I couldn't control.

What else?  I dunno, I think she just posted an Asian guy or guy who must look Asian from the back.  She already posted someone who looked either Asian or British or probably Mid Eastern before.  Hm..  Why don't ya'll give me a chance to be healthy and happy?  I can't have people like Ellen DeGeneres posting things like that and me wondering what it means!  And it's like if I got more sleep or worked out before that things wouldn't have affected me like this.  So, I'm affected.  I kinda like it, but I just said it's people getting at me with shit.  I don't want like say my future son to look Asian.  Maybe, I can't really predict anything.  I'm working on myself right now.  See, I just got upset @ something, and then I get affected by things like this.  I don't know what to do @ people surprising me like this old best friend, this old best friend..  Why is the world turned into her mistakes?  I don't know if that's a bad thing to say.  I don't want people to act like I'm stupid and not fun when I am.  I'm not from the great outdoors.  Also, I don't find it fair because I took time off school it so happens and haven't been able to recover.  I didn't get enough smart help to lessen my load and get away from home!  My parents don't want me lying around mad all day on my blog..

You know what I really wanted to say?  I wasn't mad, I couldn't help going into a stoop.  But I still am affected.

Mebbe..

..I'll go for a walk + get a slushie.

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I updated my Twitter profile to say Western Germanic.

I am at a loss for bodily needs.  I so wanna decorate my room, maybe will plan that.  I have laundry and wanna see the TV show.  I wanna net

Voice Over

A guy is gonna help me, too..  To see how much I can do.  I'm not a celeb.  I used to have potential..

I guess..

..I'll go watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."

..or nap.

Well

I contacted some places @ voice over and will see how it goes.

Oh, no!

I cut the wound deeper from influence of Ginny trying to hurt me.

Sorry to Ellen or anyone I misjudged, but 1958 produced such slobs, and of course I'm just shit.  OK, I wanna hurt myself?  NO!

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I must admit

Ginny is mean.  Her daughter turned on her.  I think she wants to do something embarrassing to Ellen DeGeneres, who has nothing to do with me and that shouldn't really come to mind.

So

Ginny's daughter came to mind.

I got up cuz I was really hungry and I guess need sleep.  Haven't taken my pill cuz I didn't have a big meal just yet.

I love the pictures I saw of Ginny's daughter, especially this 1, I guess.  She seemed to have strength and to feel good.  That sounds inappropriate to people with older parents.  I never got to meet her.  Luckily, though I wouldn't, I didn't imagine anything bad for her, just thought hm all Ginny has is her daughter and not her students.  I think she just wanted to get me through life and I'll forget @ it.

I guess I'd better check my nice posts, but Central Florida got it outta me, like I'm not perfect.  Oh well, have fun Ginny.  I am sad @ Ellen bc I am younger than her.

Tell me how you feel @ imagining violence.  It taught me that Ginny would want to hurt me.  Why does she just get at me to please Central Florida?  Would just anyone do that?  Does she need help?

I am so sorry, I mean, I was walking to get food.  I think I have to take a nap before I finish "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."

I think there are healthy ways to imagine dualing, but that was raw and there will be a natural consequence.

I imagined Ginny was hurting my dad, like they tried to stimulate him.  It was so much!  It didn't make me fall over.  I am probably stupid to not know it was just a lie.  I just wanted to comment on that Ginny.  Whatever you want is fine, but I mean all I know is I'm shit to Ellen, in this way.  So, then, go find someone who's not younger nor her age, like a parental age.

What's up, ya'll?

I was having fun watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" but guess now I am hungry and need to eat.  I think I'm taking a walk.

Thanks to..

..whatever Tim Burton and Johnny Depp do wrong, jealous people are mean to me and put me down rather than look up to me.

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However..

..Do you feel Ellen did it with the intention of insulting us?  What do I got against Nell Burton?  I just am factual, don't like how the world is @ worshipping her.  I didn't call her anything except what I thought they said in the experiment.  Other than that, I said my dad might die because of the issue of her.  That means her mom should be more menial, not more hm hm.  I thought I liked her.  ':/  She's weaving it in even saying she's sarcastic @ it.

Also, Ellen thinks she's nicer and more perfect than me, but she's not even nice and perfect I'm guessing, just friendly and attuned.  So, she is but not like all of a sudden no one just said that @ me.

Dreams

There were 3.  I only remember the end I was with 2 guys with an accent, and 1 who was leaner with an ineffectively longer nose said like Count Dracula, "(So,) you want to take care of your body."  I seemed like I forgot an increasing amount of linesin acting.  You know, I hate it when ethnic guys act like all the young girls today which would mean me are g** for them.  Like, before they were more strict, and I'm a strict person.  Thanks to Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, I don't seem to get anything.  Before, they just saw I had a hard life and didn't want to impose on me.  Also, did anyone notice Ellen DeGeneres feeling funny on the show?  Like, feeling aroused in sorta a way that makes her feel pleasured when she's not thinking of the show, as though she needs to get off?  Her whole show seems rather sleepy.  Maybe, she's dying because of old age of what she does.  She's also an expert.  I hate how nothing is for us.  They were nice to kids before in the like 1930s and even 1960s.

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Good bye dear Ellen!  Time for my walk.  3I

Typing

How do ya'll type?  With your thick fingers?

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I updated my height on Twitter to <5'5.

Stuff..

I need to stop and smell the flowers, and I changed my Twitter background.

I'd probably cry now under pressure, but I don't act unimpressed by fame.  I look for things in normal people..or whatever you'd call me and my past wishes.  I just wanna be able to walk around and meet people, seems possible.

Problem

You know, Ellen, I don't think it's cute to suck up to you or the weird "messages" I'm getting.  I don't wanna be bopped for every thing I do that makes it.  ^What about^ the things that you think I told someone in my head?

Oh, if you didn't get it, I mean I'm not gonna suck up to you cuz sucking up is bad.  In other words, I mean you seem smart, but you do seem like a robot, like you can't step outta character or something in some way.  ..What I mean is I don't just sit there in a stupor.  I actually identify what's being said and then post it on my blog.  I change moods, but I don't get moody..try not to.  I don't usually explode, but sometimes what I made myself do emotionally and such was quite weird.  I just felt you thought you could never like "frown" your eyebrows or make them look serious.  I know you're gay, and that probably is why.  I guess you don't wanna be called that, but I mean something like that, like being gay for you and just like looking up to you in a way that says you're better unless it's those iKids, who it would seem should have to do the same thing though I don't think any good person should.  What I mean by better is that we cannot co-achieve.

Anyone?

Why do I see my dad have long conversations with his sister..s?  I do with my gramma on the phone, when I called her.  You know, I already got dressed.  My new habit.

Funny

You think I was the 1 who said the N word, but it was for the experiment I thought and snap decided..but I'm the nicer person.  It's so funny, nothing you've imprinted and left on me matters cuz it was something in my past, like you know my mom doesn't think I'm perfect|always that good.  I have no clue why people just take any opportunity to ruin it for me and for the other people than themselves.  Ugh, I type on NotePad on a new keyboard, not sure what else to say.  It's a long topic.  I just wanted to be who I was, I don't act coy and bob my head down and look away as I smile softly, so I'm not just someone who's shy who can't converse.  I'm a more mature person, I don't live some fantasy that I actually wanna look like the .. stood.  The stood of the generation we are not encouraged to follow these days cuz we know in the end we're gonna just have a hissy on everyone and maybe we seem lazy.  I have no clue why, maybe you have 2 older parents.  Nothing wrong with either person.  I have character, moral, and ambition.  I'm a normal person if need be, to try to make best friends and such and learn juicy gossip!  To go shopping together, to visit as a group sometime so we can all dress up other than to church and take pictures and post them online.  I can do stuff like that, I have the time.  Even though I don't have time for homework.  I just sit there and don't feel like doing what I'm doing.  The school day is too long, and I don't spend any of it socializing.

My Pets

I guess I didn't think I was going anywhere, but I forgot about visiting my aunt and gramma, in Florida, though.  I mean, I should still be able to have pets.  My gramma is actually just moving, though.  I mean, nothing wrong with a pet.  Dogs aren't really that hard.  Don't have 1.  The hamster is just.. "nice."  The betta fish is very smart, too.

I just wanted the experience of taking care of them, possibly because of wanting to train a border collie when I retire in my 30s or 40s as a performer.  Might not make sense for someone like me, but I wanted a dog I guess.  I like wild animals, like wild cats..  So, it was like it was t take care of them and for the experience, the betta, then I knew I liked hamsters so got 1.  For a long time, I said I'd get 1, but it was discreet.

Multi-tasking can be a good thing.  I'm spending time going to Disney now, too, in October, getting the all time Florida pass for like $200.  I felt like I was at Disney when I went to the theater and saw The Wizard of Oz as IMAX 3D.

Dreams

I remember the 2nd 1.  I was waiting for my mom but was with others instead.  I wanted to try to call Ellen DeGeneres, but I heard my mom's toes were gone.

Come On

Seriously, before Charlie and the Chocolate Factory which brought along Tim Burton, none of this happened.  Ginny wasn't really mean to me, as nice as she supposedly would be.  I know cuz she's really nice but also has hurt me.

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I'm sorry but

I'm not the 1 who needs to be on a pill.

Staying Quiet

How does that help?  Doesn't it come up sooner or later, though it doesn't seem to come up with me.  Guess I don't waste energy on weird things like that.

You have to roll through thoughts to get to the right 1.  I know it's not always a smooth process, but just stay positive and learn to simplify.

I guess..

People have a hard time saying what they mean.  Like, because no one answers.  There's no way of communicating, really.

OK wuts up

Why do you put me with annoying older people.

Is this topic even worth it?

That shouldn't suggest anything to anyone.  I was wondering why I am being teased.  Like, supposedly we all die so why not make something go like Ellen DeGeneres believing her generation is the 1 that goes to Heaven and just like ruin it for everyone?

Help!

Ellen!  My friend!!

I saw "Ghost Adventures" and learned something.  I forget now.  I remember I wasn't in a mood to see a ghost.  I feel like 2 how I think, can't remember.  They reminded me of New Orleans.  Ah!  I can't remember.  I usually can.

Facebook

I found this girl.

She is friends with my aunts.  I think she comes from my aunt's husband's big German family.  Their mother just passed away 2 years ago.  She was a sweet, tiny German lady with such lovely kids.  I see she married someone British.  I find I understand her more, maybe cuz my mom's unacceptedly Dutch Chinese Indonesian.  I'm serious, that family likes me.  I shoulda been more careful online like her.

O, I was gonna say, I wanna be recognized for being like that family when my aunt's don't fit in, and it's from my mom, though she's Chinese.  I was sure of it, but I didn't feel accepted as I was.  I see I could go back and edit that, but why?  I don't feel that competent, anymore.  I'm uncomfortable and have a busy mind.  I need to clean my room to make it a happy place.  I dunno, I just feel a bit injured.  I guess we all do.  We're learning to be strong.  I mean, I got stuff laying about and need a coat stand.  I have nowhere to lodge my blankets.  My room looks so ugly!

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So

Good family or poor family?

Caught a Fast 1, I Think

Ellen DeGeneres doesn't believe people are good on their own but by their race, their parents's age and what they can do to you in their level of fitness|mentality.  She's probably just saying it but naturally doesn't believe it.  Just sorta tossing it out there.  I felt offended being 1/2 Chinese.  She's Jewish, and I'm a nigger, how 'bout that.  Everyone likes the white Jews.  People don't connect to me racially, for some reason.  Hey, she had Pink on her show and her mom is all Jewish I think.  I just feel she's questioned all I've done.  I posted @ it, and then I noticed maybe she really did believe in the opposite.

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What do you think of the hatred of white people? Like, you just did what they did and it's not okay to them. Then, you feel like something else. I just like Middle Eastern.

Something More Interesting

If you even are wondering @ if like I could just be nice and ignore, she didn't really seem to say anything to me.  Why is it worth it for any accomplished person?  I wanted friends, I wanted to be the 1 who did the right thing, in the end, and have everyone like me.

Disturbed

I was listening to Ginny, doing the vocal warmups, and she seemed to have some nasty thoughts @ me.  I already said I'll just keep fighting whoever does shit to me for Nell Burton and the N word thing, how else should I say?

Thoughts

People don't really want me to get what I want.  I forget why I said that.

Did you ever consider real manners?  Like, what does that person want me to do.  Are they sad?

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I posted there: link.

Twitter, too!

Hamster Group

I thought I had it together.  I just have certain needs I found out about.

Suggestive

Why are you making me feel suggestions in a bad way, like when you hold over a thought?

What's important?

That you stimulate every attractive adult?  All day?  Ha ha ha.  I have my freedom of speech and I can still have fun with feelings..

Only a stupid dodo won't talk..

Weirdos Online

Do you know how when someone says something and it doesn't connect to anything, like they want you to go along with a thought for shit reasons?

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I added that "Hark! The Herald Angels Sing" to "The Good Life" of my website.

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Morning

The ***iest part of the day is probably me waking up after m..

I have some good ideas.  I wanna redo my room.. hard to get in and paint, moving stuff in between.  Brick wallpaper?  What bedspread?

My dream, hard to remember.  It seemed long-winded.

I have a red aunt bite on my left hand.  :(  Oh well.

Oh, yes, and a shit rat is a rat that looks cute..  :|  Wanna be it?  Sorry I said it saying like it is shit.  I would never mean that.  :|

I'll go pour my cereal and come back in here and eat it and then get ready eventually.  Gotta pee, too, of course.  Wonder what to wear?  Folded my laundry but didn't iron.

Good Night Soon!

SOOOOO SORRY

wut do i do wuz it funny tho D=

Try

try to hold it in but I guess I just had something funny to say.. hope it's not funny again though.  I can start over I guess, but I don't.  I dunno.. dunno what to do  Maybe I'm washed up.

HEEY

Ellen Ellen Ellen I love you!  I do get mad..no 1 talks to me (@ it.)

Just wanted to say I watched the show, and I was feeling guilty.  I have no clue where my life is!  *D;

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The Norwegians I hope had a good time.  The dudes were cool, too.

So yees very sorry but sometimes I like to say weird things I don't wanna say..  Ghost Adventures!  A guy who wants Tim Burton in the days when he was in on haunted theaters!!

Problem

So, is that stinky rat Ellen ever gonna quit?  Don't go sniffing yourself.  I mean, why did I just wonder some shit like is my dad on the opposing side and my mom isn't?  Please, go away and don't hurt them.  :|  They are my family, and they have it together.  Forget that shit rat Ginny, aha ha ha.

Question

So, do you think Ellen is immoral?  I don't mind, but I mean that's what I'm wondering.

Being Too Sensitive and Secretive

I think Ellen just jokes.

That kid was just sensitive.  I wasn't mean..  :|  You okay????

Oh, yes.

So, what do we say?

Problem

Ellen I really love you, but you can't get a joke.  I mean it when I say it.  You are catering to the teen generation.  I am jealous.  I said I wouldn't be, but I am.

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Ha Ha Ha

I wanna fight Ellen.  I see those turds on her show.  They just submit to her to annoy me.

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I edited my Twitter Profile..

What do you think?

Do you find Ellen's wishes tacky?

Something Funnier

Ellen tries to please the mean kids like her.  WTF do I watch her show and never even have my own rectification of a say in my life!

Ugh!

That minion Ginny is interfering my life, like she's dipping her huge ass into our water.  Now, I have to worry @ my dad from her.  ':/

What do you not understand @ the tone of my post!  It's supposed to be funny!  80

Problems

I know you're not supposed to say someone did something wrong, but we all are aware of that.  I don't wanna listen to stuff Ellen does if it's bad.  I have the feeling she thinks she can get people to control their emotions.  I feel like trash because of her!

What I Think @..

So, can someone tell me why Nell Burton has such a pudgy face?  I don't understand teaching them they are Jew.  I mean, what about an average figure?  I know she wants to be like certain people, even in some ways her dad.  I just feel as though the - back - burden is being placed on others for how Nell feels, like it's not even Tim's fault and it's like just sit there and think @ it.  I liked her with the hair just a little below her shoulders and bangs and dark light brown hair, like light brown of a darker shade, more yellow than red.

Is music just music, or is like New Orleans the only place with an established identity, round and round and round we go, where we stop nobody knows  8|

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Do you know how..

..Ginny is really wrong and selfish in the light?  Well, Ellen supposedly isn't perfect and maybe her mom is but then isn't because Ellen isn't, but I think they're all pretty good actually.

Didn't you like expect this?

Ellen DeGeneres the Jew with Nell??  Nell Burton has been used as a bad tool and herself is racist and smug and can't seem to do anything, herself.  Her mother even knows this and cares.

Well

I could chose to ignore it, but I mean I know I didn't say what I said without blowing up and I'm a little worried.  I mean, it just doesn't look right.  It should make me stronger, I mean come on affecting sleep?  Maybe, I'm surrounded, though, by people in a way others aren't.

Shoe Size

I thought I was 6XXX, but now I’m 8.

Last Night

I felt I was losing my memory.  That reminds me of another Tweet to Ellen.  I guess I'm burned out, need to remember other things.  Oh, what about others, same?  People don't just say oh hey we should start to think differently.  Instead, they just knock you out.  They smile and think it’s cute to be rude.  Hey, that reminds me of Nell Burton, again!  Why should Nell be in this?  I feel it’s another insulting message.  I really am tired of her in my life like this, but I didn’t say you couldn’t do it, but then all I get is you don’t want to do anything.  I do see my face does seem to be made up of this candy.  Nell seems like a punishment from Tim Burton and as a person doesn’t have much to offer, just a *** dream of wanting people to be racially sorry for her, but then again that’s what Ellen DeGeneres does.  She probably didn’t do that before she was born in 2007 when she hosted the Oscars.  Wow, why is she even like .. I mean this is a punishment, not just oh a beautiful baby who wants the world all happy in flowers.  She wants to steal from us our happiness.  If you’re just wondering @ my unfinished sentence, you shouldn’t.  I just don’t know what to say now.  I need to go eat.  I am getting tired of this post, guess I can post it.  Sorry I didn't seem to make a good post, but anyway..  I didn't really say what you know I think.  Well, maybe I don't think that.

Humph

What's wrong with normal food?

Problem

I woke up to a rather unpleasant surprise.  My head felt like it was made of this sorta vacuumed, tight, rubbery yet sticky like dough mostly stuff, well my brain, sorta as though it were all 1 thing.  All I could think of was how Ellen DeGeneres made her eye ridges like Nell Burton and showed them off to me with the intention I was 1/2 Chinese I felt.  Not sure how you'd make sense of it going across.  I feel rather brain dead, as though I've had too many pills.  I blame Ginny because my mom might be scared I'll get mad and tries to get me mad.  I also blame Tim Burton.  Ellen DeGeneres tries to humiliate people.  I think my mom knows.  All I did was get upset @ the chemicals in my brain.  I don't believe I should be on the pills, but there's another reason I'm on them.  I think it happened just because I was mulling over it.  I think it was planted in me and Ellen DeGeneres, who is too uptight to think she does anything for anyone factually.., like it’s like she wanted it and she took her time to do it.  Ellen, you shouldn’t be doing that.  No one likes it.  Ya’ll don’t need to do that to be safe, not anymore!  I personally find it nit-picky and something no one else would want to have happen to them.  What about my precious head?  Also, Nell Burton has been getting in the way of like Tim Burton and now you.  I thought he would be more there for the world, but he literally answers it’s about his daughter.  You can tell it in how he acts.  I sorta stopped saying this, but I mean like people use her as a guide or tool against you.  Her mom shook her head at the Oscars saying she thinks all the stuff for me, or the good kids, should go to her, as someone spoke @ his award and disagreed.  I see it wasn’t a good attitude, but he was sitting with her.  It’s funny how people think of other people at things like this like that.  I wonder if we could get that not to come up.  There is the part of the dedication as an option, but I don’t understand it.  I would thank all the people who supported me online if I got some sort of reward.  I’d be thinking of people, possibly, myself though I don’t usually seem to know.. good to be nice, though.  Anyway, it disturbs me, Nell Burton like is trying to hurt us saying she and not others deserve to be like Ellen DeGeneres.  That’s something that affected me and made me get out something else.  I dunno, I mean what happened to my brain??  What the Hell did I do?  It’s like I didn’t sleep enough, too.  I’m just waking up and need my cereal, but my mom’s out there.  I really am not feeling a certain good way @ this, the idea Ellen is like Nell Burton.  She seems to have woken up and just wanted everything from everyone!  I’m serious.  That was a startling sorta message.  Ellen just believes in making me shitty.  I guess I should be more thankful.  I wouldn’t want to be a good fairy.  So, yes, she probably did that because I thought in the experiment I was supposed to call Nell the N word.  That’s what happened.  So, I feel “that was why” and that’s why I can’t take it.  Unfortunately, I think this has worthlessly affected out happiness.  I’m tired of that creep Helena Bonham Carter.  I liked her in Les Miserables.  I think I’m waking up, though.  It didn’t really hurt me, and it’s not really bad.  It just doesn’t seem like a good thing.  I wouldn’t do something like that to someone, like you don’t know where you are supposedly?  What have these people done to affect my life!?  My dad is just being a set, well, animal.  Yesterday, I was eating supper again and my dad was acting vicious and derogatory and I felt like he ate a chord and wanted to get down at my big brain.  Well, the chord was there, I mean, whatever.  The chord was on the right side..  This is also like when he sorta knocked out my hands looking sorta crystally or put together that way.  I stopped for awhile but went back.  I’m too fat, now, though.  When I called someone the N word, .. my head had just been ruined trying to get blackheads out, like my brain, really.  I don’t need that sorta plastic, artificial logic my dad thinks is what we said through my gramma, but I am free from my parents’s bondage since college.  See, I just wasted a morning..  I need to go eat.

Good Night!

Betta

I said, "Did you eat your shrimp?"  It opened its powerful little jaws!  Then, it shook its head no.  It went to the top and swallowed air.  I'm getting it more food Saturday.

This is a miracle!

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People always said I was too perfect.  I used to ask how to be in relationships, too.  My generation is bland.

Well

Ellen is her own person.  I just want to know why I'm being lagged by Helena Bonham Carter.

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2 reasons I can't be New Orleanian to you..

I don't know what its culture is beyond the basics.
I forget the 2nd.

I go there and feel I'm learning @ something cool, but I wonder if it's a New England Cajun trap.

When You M..

How much?  I used to do it sometimes for like possibly 15 minutes, like as a kid or get it over with a few big times.  Now, I can't feel it as much anymore and it's only once, sometimes twice.  I think I could feel more, but I dunno, maybe have to go to Miami.  :(  Still, isn't a nice thing.  I seem to do it once every day.  It's kinda weird.  It doesn't really scare me.  I feel there was a tall, thin, 5'6" cloaked figure of death behind me.

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The News

They seem to like me.  They just aren't mad but understand there are problems.  They know my life's been too hard and I'm not Satan.

Hum

I feel pulled way from "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" or Ellen DeGeneres cuz I didn't watch real life TV until I was an adult in my 20s.

Well,

my dad isn't worse than all of the other dads, how could a person be cursed so?

Why..

Do people think I take advantage of talents I supposedly posses?  I want to be genuine.

Is someone wounded?

I was just saying how I wasn't treated like Ellen DeGeneres.

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I did a video of me talking @ "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  I'm loading all my old stuff now, though.

So, I thought Pink was really nice.  Pennsylvania just has something down, but I always found with my friends it wasn't like an issue being different.  They were from the east coast.

Pink looks like such a good gymnast who must have stuck with it!  People with gymnastics these days seem to have such control and strength.  I wanted to learn trapeze in Miami.  My 1st thing is I am trying to learn voice over and get in Finding Dory.  Next, the Disney parade.  After that, I can count on money in general and get an apartment and take trapeze or just enjoy living in Miami Beach.

Back to the show, I hope Ellen is doing well.  I know she focuses a lot on her body.  I should, too.  I think I started.  She is such a beautiful person.  I like how she's so there for you.  I think that's what people think.

Well, this was a really good episode.  Pink's daughter, wo, is so cute!

Well, okay!

Frazzled but not Dizzy..

I have to clean my room!

I wanted to tune in to "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," but I guess I should wait until we put stuff away, might take the opportunity to iron.  Not sure if I'm working out today, though.  I hope to get stuff up on my blog and website..

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Problem

So, why is Ellen DeGeneres mad?  She said, like, don't Tweet, don't Facebook..  I didn't say anything bad, wonder if someone else did.  Oh yea, I wanna live through this shit.

No Excuses

It's not an excuse to say well Christina was really good a lot but did some things (which I didn't) so you won't be in that situation anyway and because of that I can put on an act and be mean to her as my goal.

Thoughts

Even a very nice person making a big deal of someone in their life who is either themselves born @ 1960 or a child with a parent born then..  I know it's just to do something I don't believe in, to say there's something better out there for them than for someone else, to say well this is how we set the rules, we know that 1950 people are smart so 1960 people are romantic, that's just how it is.  I don't believe in that.  Why?  Because my dad is born in 1950.  My mom is obviously a young-looking person and probably young, I know her age.  She is Chinese.  So, as a European I am definitely a very romantic and popular personality around, though some people say I'm pretty quiet.  They just comment I'm smart, nice, and that they can trust me.  "Sweet and Shy."

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